I Talk to Myself of Doubt
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I say “you’ll be fine” then I second guess
Every quiet thought turns into a mess
I make up problems that don’t exist
Then I believe every one I twist
Rewriting things I already said
I play it back like a broken sound
I lift myself just to drag me down
I talk to myself of doubt
Say it loud then I drown it out
Build it up just to break it down
Wear the fear like a crown
I talk to myself again
Like I’m my own worst friend
Every word turns back around
I talk to myself of doubt
I hear my voice but it’s not kind
It cuts me slow in a quiet line
I try to stop but it pulls me in
Like every loss is about to begin
I count the ways it could all go wrong
Turn every second into too long
I hold my breath for a fall that’s near
Even when nothing’s really here
It’s just me talking in the dark
Leaving questions with no mark
It’s just me filling up the space
With every fear I can’t erase
I talk to myself of doubt
Say it loud then I drown it out
Build it up just to break it down
Wear the fear like a crown
I talk to myself again
Like I’m my own worst friend
Every word turns back around
I talk to myself of doubt
If I went quiet would it fade
Or find another way to stay
If I let go of every line
Would I finally feel alright
Would I finally feel alright?
Tonight?
I talk to myself of doubt
But I don’t have to listen now
Let it rise, let it fall back down
I don’t need that sound
I talk to myself less loud
Let the silence work it out
Every echo losing ground
I talk to myself of doubt
I talk to myself again
Like I’m my own worst friend
Every word turns back around
I talk to myself of doubt
I talk to myself again
Like I’m my own worst friend
Every word turns back around
I talk to myself of doubt
© E.K.Holbrook
